{shame on me}

It's been over a month since my last post and well, I have no excuses.  Well, any good ones anyway.  I think part of it was posting every day (or close to it) for my Thankful posts.  Man, that was harder than I thought.  I have a lot to be thankful for but that was quite a task.  And to be honest, I have been really busy - so much to pin... so little time.

Which brings me to the subject at hand... PINTEREST.  MH calls it my porn.... others have called it Fantasy Football for Girls.  I call it... my latest obsession.  I am finding the best stuff.  Recipes, fashion ideas, quotes, hairstyles, things to make my OCD worse.  I think my Organizational board is on overload.  I can't get enough of it.  In fact, neither can the Littlest Diva.  She was sick last weekend and completely bored and when I asked her what she wanted to do her reply was "Let's pin stuff".  I love her.  So that's why I haven't been on here.  Yes.  Pinterest is my excuse.  Shame on me.  And shame on you if you don't know what I'm talking about.

In other news...

I wasn't going to admit this... but hey, blogs are all about honesty... saying what you really feel no matter how many people will judge you... (blah blah blah)

I started Weight Watchers.  I did this a few years ago and was very successful.  I was doing so well working out all the time but then I got sick, my Divas were out of school and yes, excuses excuses.  But I wasn't losing anything.  And then once I took an honest look of how I was eating, well - let's just say I wasn't surprised I wasn't losing as quickly as I would have liked.  It amazed me after going through the things that I ate how many calories I was really taking in.

We don't go out to eat a lot.  And when we do, I try to make really good choices.  Or choices that I thought were good.  Like salads, sandwiches, soups.  Now some of you might be laughing hysterically right now.  Go ahead.  I deserve it.  But it could have been worse.  I could be eating burgers soaked in lard on a daily basis.  After I did some research I found that the place I frequented (and yes, that is a word) I was inhaling 2500 calories - for lunch.  2500!!  And all I was eating was a salad and a bowl of soup. Shame on me! So I figured it was time for a game change.  And here we go.

I will say this... I feel like I have a lot more tools than I did before.  I am not expecting to lose my last 25 (yes, I am admitting that) okay, 30... quickly.  Okay, I might even go for 35.  But I'm doing this.  I am sick of being tired, of not having energy, of feeling like I am wasting my life away because my weight is holding me back.  I'm back on track... and it feels really good.

At least for now... maybe I should re-visit that after Pilates class tomorrow.